PREFACE

I decided to revisit each of my blog posts many years after I originally posted them to update and revise as needed. I’m finding two things, I wish I had an editor and I want to soften the tone of the information I’m sharing. To be honest, the last thing I want to sound is preachy or righteous because I am forever learning the depths of my soul. I think when I first wrote the posts, I was excited to share a practice that worked for me so it may have come across that way. I want to revise a few things so it’s more about sharing my personal experience and what I’ve learned on my journey.   

I’m a firm believer in experiencing all aspects of self, even the darkness, and the darkest part of self. I’m learning that experiencing this darkness, which I like to refer to as the ebb in the soul’s current, does take strength and lots of compassion as you care for your soul wounds. The soul healing practices are skills and practices I’ve developed during my journey that helped in navigating through the darkness, and assisted in shifting from ebb to flow with rest and integration in between. 

The practices are psychospiritual in nature, and are a mix of my personal experience and prior professional mental health background (as a licensed clinical social worker). All of my practices involve connecting with the elevated mind and sacred heart through awareness, imagination, visualization, and meditation. These soul healing practices continue to evolve and change just as my soul is growing and expanding.

There is of course no guarantee that the practices will work for you, but if you do try any of the practices, I encourage you to experiment in order to make it your own. Listen to your inner wisdom and change or refine the practice as needed so it completely resonates with your soul. Also, all of my practices need to be at your pace, so again listen to your inner knowing and honor it.

My sacred journey is not less or more significant than anyone else’s, my only motivation for sharing is to inspire self-transformation and to offer support for your unique and sacred journey. Please forgive any editorial mistakes for this is as good as it will get without an editor ;). This is what I’ve learned along the way.

SOUL HEALING PRACTICE BACKGROUND

Although anger generally has a bad reputation, it is an effective and vital emotion that signals something has to change whether it is within or outside of us. Anger typically arises from feeling threatened, hurt, disrespected, or unsafe in our mental, emotional, physical, or environmental experiences. In my opinion, the underlying energy of anger is based in fear and hurt.

When anger is channeled with clarity and balance it can be transformed into power, empowerment, clear action, or even no action. I like to think  of anger as an energy source, a source that can be used for empowerment. Anger can motivate us to stand up for ourselves, to set appropriate soul boundaries, to inform us we’ve outgrown a situation or circumstance, or to activate us in finding safety due to a threatening situation.

My relationship with anger has been tricky because during my upbringing I didn’t feel like I could be angry. There was only one person in the household who could express anger while the rest of us were silent waiting for the outburst to simmer. My anger didn’t just go away all those years, it was buried until a crack was formed when my husband was killed in action during the early Iraq war. It was like a deep fissure leading to my molten core where it had a pathway to be seen and to be released. When I did get angry I felt guilty and I didn’t know how to hold space for it because I wasn’t suppose to be angry. 

Once I accepted anger as a valid emotion and that I have reasons to be angry, I didn’t suppress it anymore or feel guilty for experiencing it. I gained more compassion for the anger that was in my household because I was beginning to understand the energy of anger. I also knew I didn’t want to dwell in the anger for too long where it would have negative impacts on myself and others, but wanted to learn how to transform it into empowerment.  

During my journey, I learned that sometimes you have to allow the anger to surface and smolder in your experience long enough for you to be ready to move and transform the energy. I’m learning to hold anger as sacred in its own right and purpose. To me anger has a clear purpose, to help us maintain balance and harmony in our inner and outer worlds. In my experience, if you try to move it too quickly or minimize, even dismiss it, then it will most likely be suppressed until it is triggered in a future experience. Often then it expresses itself more intensely or in a confusing or convoluted way which in turn causes more internal pain and discomfort.

The question then may be how do you know when you are ready to move and transform it? I’ve found it is definitely time when anger becomes too heavy and burdensome (consumes most of your emotional state), begins to affect your health (causing physical pain, inflammation, flare-ups), and starts to negatively interfere with your relationships. Of course, you can transform it way before all of this happens, but this provides a threshold when it is definitely time.

As I was observing the energy of anger and becoming more aware of it within myself, I found this threshold is usually preceded by a tendency to  be consumed by anger’s untamed energy, even if we aren’t completely aware of it. This consumption can lead to a desire to hastily rid of it in any way possible, to anchor in the energy too long in an attempt to achieve a sense of justice, or it becomes the underlying theme of our personality. However, this energy is typically unstable and will become destructive at some point. Either scenario can negatively impact not only ourselves, but others and our environment in the process.

There are several ways we irresponsibly harness anger energy and may express it in the following ways: 1) project it outward in the form of verbal and/or physical outbursts, 2) primarily blame others for our distress, 3) use passive aggressive behaviors such as withdrawing (“silent treatment”), make underhanded or dismissive comments or behavior (“under your breath” comments or rolling your eyes), or gossip, and 4) use manipulation to get what we want such as gaslighting. All of which carries an excessively dense energy that travels with you like a thick, smoldering dark fog. The dense fog over time may create anxiety and depressive symptoms and/or negatively affect relationships, to include the relationship with yourself.

Anger needs our attention and understanding, but it does not need thoughts and behaviors that perpetuate it as an untamed and even harmful or destructive cyclical energy. For anger to be effectively transformed into empowerment, it first requires compassion and understanding for its presence. A simple, but loving curiosity for the reason it is sounding the alarm of an internal or external imbalance so we may heal it. I get it, just hearing the words, “compassion, understanding, or loving” in relation to yourself may provoke some anger or irritation, especially when the relationship with yourself may be a bit volatile. But in my opinion, all the more reason to try the soul healing practice to begin relating to yourself in a different way.

SOUL HEALING PRACTICE

The following are effective ways to transform anger into power and empowerment before it becomes a cyclical harmful energy. These practices can be done individually or together and are only suggestions. Please do experiment with the soul healing practice, change it, refine it as needed so it truly resonates with your soul and it becomes your personal practice. By making the practice your own, you are listening to your inner guidance and are connecting with your sacred divine self, and with your unique wisdom and soul’s vibration.

Before I begin any of the soul healing practices, I like to settle my energy by doing a four-count breath technique, where I count to four as I inhale expanding the lower belly (1, 2, 3, 4) and count four backwards as I exhale slowly (4, 3, 2, 1), repeating as needed. I then follow with intentional breathing: as I slowly inhale I say to myself I am and on the exhale I say calm, continuing the practice on the inhale saying I am and on the exhale saying safe, breathing in I am and breathing out empowered, breathing in I am and breathing out love, breathing in I am and breathing out light, and finally breathing in I am and breathing out free. You can end this practice with the following statement or intention: I trust myself, I believe in myself. Remember with this practice to bring the breath all the way down to your lower belly and not just to your chest. The breath not only gives life to the intention, but also helps to anchor it into your soul’s vibration. If you like this technique, I also suggest experimenting with the intentions so it totally resonates with you and gives you a sense of calm, and a feeling of being centered, nurtured, and empowered. 

PRACTICE 1: This practice involves setting an energetic soul boundary to help you feel empowered and to bring more clarity and flow into your inner experience. Energetic boundaries can also help to establish a sense of safety from within so that you feel safe enough to allow more clarity to flow in your mind and heart, which will most likely inform you of the anger’s purpose.

The soul healing practice requires visualization, imagery, and intentions in order to establish the boundary. It begins by visualizing a flame burning in the center of your being or solar plexus area. I like to call this my sacred flame. Visualize the flame growing larger, where it extends upward to the crown of your head and beyond (to the sacred sun, to God, source creator energy, or whatever resonates with your beliefs), and downward to your feet and beyond to the earth’s molten core. The movement of the fire above and below is meant to activate, energize, and purify all your energy centers (chakras). You can imagine that the energy of the fire lengthens your spine and lifts your head so you are standing tall and confident as your warrior-self, and you are now aligned above and below. 

Now visualize extending this fire energy all around you in order to form a ring of fire or a full sphere of fire that surrounds you. Once you establish this fire boundary take a moment to feel its innate power through you and all around you. You may observe how the sacred flame is beginning to transform the anger into this power such as generating feelings of more confidence, strength, and empowerment. I then like to add the following intention: no one can manipulate or guilt me, control or have power over me, hurt me, or take from me including myself, or you will be burned, I am fully empowered and protected. 

I also like to take this visualization a little further. I will share my personal visualization so you have a guideline. I encourage you to experiment with the imagery and intentions so this practice becomes uniquely your own, and you feel more safe, secure, confident, and strong.

After I ignite my sacred flame and establish my fire boundary (as described above), I then add the element of activating my sacred divine masculine, my warrior-self. I imagine my divine masculine as a warrior god with golden Spartan armor. I see him rising from the sacred flames as if he is being birthed from the flames like a phoenix. As he ascends, I visualize that we integrate as one with enormous strength, power, and protection. I also imagine a fiery and powerful dragon arises from the flames and stands behind my warrior-self. I send a clear message to the person, situation, or to my own mind that I am fully empowered and protected by repeating the same intentions as above. Sometimes I imagine I am also surrounded by other masculine figures, deities, or energies that for me symbolize tremendous strength and protection such as the sacred sun, Archangel Michael, my deceased father, the Greek god Apollo, and the Norse god Odin. I also offer them my  gratitude for their presence. It helps me to feel less alone and to feel even more protected and supported. 

Keep in mind because the boundary is composed of fire, the intention is not to inflict substantial energetic pain or hurt, but just a minor ouch to give a clear message you are fully protected and safe. The purpose of the boundary is not to add more anger and instability to the energy causing your anger, but to help to liberate you from it by making you feel more safe and empowered. The boundary can also reflect the energy back to its source for them to take care of or to be transmuted and transcended into the sacred whole (as you see the energy burning into golden ash). Again, the burning is for purification purposes and not an intention to cause more harm and pain.

Also, note that the boundary may apply to yourself. Your thoughts and beliefs can be just as damaging and destructive as anyone or any situation from your external reality. In this case, I direct the flames to burn into golden ash any self-limiting, self-defeating, or disempowering thoughts/beliefs or attachments that are holding me back from my soul’s freedom. I then see the golden ash disappear into the sacred whole which includes my sacred oneness or soul’s harmony. This imagery for me is a way to transmute and transcend the energy. Again, feel free to change or refine the imagery or intentions as needed, for example you may not resonate with fire, but another type of powerful energy like electricity, lightning, wind, or even water.

As you practice this energetic boundary daily, you may notice changes within yourself and your surroundings. In my personal practice, I noticed I feel safer from within, more empowered and confident. I noticed the people or situation I direct the boundary towards actually have changed their behavior towards me in small and big ways as if they actually felt the fire boundary. Most likely it was because I felt more empowered and confident when interacting with them. This practice has also given me the clarity to realize that I outgrew certain situations and it was time to move on.

PRACTICE 2: Sometimes our anger is too intense and strong in the moment to implement a soul healing practice with mental and emotional altitude. If this is the case for you, absolutely a valid response. It just means your anger wants to be acknowledged and seen in its raw form before it is transformed and transcended. A way to move the energy up and out is by energetically standing up for yourself so you can return to a soul healing practice with compassion, understanding, and altitude. 

Choose a quiet, safe and private space to do this work. It may involve you raising your voice so you want to make sure it is a space where someone will not think you are in distress or think the internal work you are doing is projected towards them. I’ve done this practice in my car. The practice is simple, you visualize the person or situation that triggered the anger and you tell them exactly how they impacted you without censorship or a filter, but with raw thoughts and feelings. It may involve some cursing and you may start yelling as you are releasing the energy. I like to first implement Practice 1 so that I feel more empowered with an energetic soul boundary. 

For example, I recently experienced mild road rage against me where I was actually in the right. The person behind me was honking at me, waving their hands in frustration, and yelling at their passenger even though I couldn’t move without blocking the intersection. They were incredibly impatient and probably already boiling over with anger prior to encountering me. Once I was able to safely move away from the driver, I was livid with rage myself. So I did a quick energetic soul boundary visualization in order to feel more empowered. I then imagined that I was standing tall and confident as my warrior-self before the other driver. I then proceeded to tell them how they upset me with their behavior which turned into yelling at them: you will not project your anger onto me or to anyone else; I don’t deserve it, it’s not my responsibility to take care of your anger; do your own damn internal work. I did use some profanity and called them certain names that I will not disclose in this post.

The idea is to not deny the anger you are feeling and how you would like to have responded without constraint, but to allow the energy to flow in its uncensored and raw form. You are honoring every part of you even the shadow aspects, but are doing so without causing harm to anyone else. It is a way to energetically stand up for yourself. It also helps to clear the internal canvas in order to follow up with the other practices.

After the energy has moved, you may want to follow up with an energetic cord cutting. Visit my post, “Cutting the Cords to Suffering” (19 July 2016), to learn more on this specific soul healing practice.

In addition to this practice, a good ole vent session is also helpful in releasing anger energy. I recommend that you vent to a trusted confidant who can actively listen and hold the space for you without adding more negative energy. They may also be able to offer some insights that you’ve overlooked. 

PRACTICE 3: Gently ask yourself: why am I feeling so angry? The more compassion and understanding you offer yourself, the clearer the answer. This gentle curiosity can be obtained by detaching from the feeling of anger as if you are an observer of your experience, you are merely curious about the presence of anger, and you are perceiving it from an unbiased, nonjudgmental vantage point.

If you begin to harshly judge yourself or begin to solely justify your anger while asking this question, then it will fuel the cycle of anger granting it extra power over you and overriding any clarity. If you find the anger is a bit too consuming to fairly ask yourself this question, then it would be beneficial to further ground your energy. Effective ways of grounding may include, but not limited to: the breath practices mentioned earlier (four-count or intentional breathing) or any practice of your choosing, physical activity or exercise, grounding/mindfulness using your senses, or meditation (transcendental, loving-kindness, intention, visualization/imagery, prayer). If the anger energy is still having a difficult time grounding you can try some of the other practices described in this post before exploring your thinking or you just may not be ready to move it, then in this case try it another time. 

As you practice a genuine interest in your interior world, you may observe the unfolding of a trail of thoughts prior to discovering a central thought igniting and fueling the raging volcano within. The thought may surprise you because it may be a core belief rooted in the past, possibly from your upbringing.

I will provide an example of how you may explore your thinking. In this example, imagine you are driving and experience a stressful driving situation. The thought process may unfold as follows:

• I can’t believe they just cut me off! (notice personalizing the situation as if they intentionally cut you off to specifically upset you).
• Ground your energy by a technique described above and gently ask yourself, why am I feeling so angry?
• The answer may include, they’re so disrespectful and entitled; they could of caused an accident.
• Further explore the thought, they’re so disrespectful, in order to identify an “I” statement associated with the thought. An example of an “I” statement corresponding to this thought may include, I feel disrespected.
• Compassionately ask yourself, what does it mean to be disrespected or what does it say about me when I’m disrespected?
• The answer may include, I don’t matter, I’m weak, I’m invisible, or I’m unworthy. These types of thoughts are deeper, core beliefs.

Notice in the above example, the trail of thoughts can quickly identify a deeper, core issue. The technique to ask yourself: what does it say about me when… or what does it mean to be…, is quite effective in identifying core beliefs or “I” statements rather than projection statements (“he”, “she”, “they” statements). The “I” statements are driving your subconscious reaction or response to the situation. “I” statements are a powerful way of regaining ownership and responsibility of your internal experience, thus regaining your power over the external situation or circumstance that feels out of your control. 

Once these thoughts are identified you may want to travel further along your soul’s path to see if there are any deeper soul wounds by asking yourself with compassion and understanding: where or when in my life have I felt this before? The current event may have only been a trigger for you to explore and heal this unresolved past wound. Often the mere act of being compassionate and understanding of your experience as self-defeating and disempowering core beliefs are identified and illuminated offers enough light and higher vibrational energy to transmute and transcend the denser energy. If that isn’t quite enough, then I suggest trying Practice 4 below which offers another way to transmute and transcend the energy.

PRACTICE 4: You can use this practice in conjunction with Practice 3  once a thought or belief associated with the anger is identified. This practice incorporates the elements of clearing, transmuting, and transcending your mental, emotional, and physical states of being by also using visualization and intentions.

I begin the practice by neutralizing my soul’s energy where I visualize two polar energies, one above me that is of light and one below me that is of darkness. When these two energies collide at my soul’s core, it is neutralized causing a ripple effect of neutral, calm, even voided energy that for me provides a feeling of relief and peace. If you would like a more in depth description of this practice, please refer to the book, The Temples of Light: An Initiatory Journey into the Heart Teachings of the Egyptian Mystery Schools, by Danielle Rama Hoffman.

I then make the intention of clearing my mental burdens by visualizing the thought or belief that was identified in Practice 3 in my mind’s eye or my mental space. As of now, I visualize my mental space as a large room with windows on every wall. Once I see the thought/belief in the middle of the room, I then visualize an intense breeze or strong wind blowing it out of the room through one of the windows. I also see the movement of the air cleaning and clearing all corners of the room so my mental space is free of all mental dust and debris.

Once my mental space is clear, I then move to my heart space. As of now, I imagine my heart space as a meadow of wildflowers surrounded by large mountains. I visualize and briefly feel the feeling(s) that are associated with the identified thought/belief from Practice 3, which may include fear, sadness, anger, and so on. I imagine the feeling(s) as a dense, dark fog in my heart’s meadow. I clear the feelings by visualizing the fog is moving out of my meadow by another intense breeze or wind, until all that remains is fresh, crisp, and clear mountain air.

I also clear my physical body by focusing on any pain or discomfort that the identified thought and feelings may be contributing. I visualize threads of golden light and energy moving towards the pain or discomfort and gently combing through it in order to break up blockages or to completely dissolve it. 

I continue the visualization to transmute and transcend the energy into the sacred whole which includes my sacred oneness or soul’s harmony. As of now, I visualize everything that was cleared from my mental, heart, and physical space collected and packaged upon a cargo ship. I imagine cutting the rope that anchors the ship to my soul’s harbor so that the ship is released and begins to move towards the horizon. Sometimes I ask the assistance of Archangel Michael to help me cut the rope with his powerful sword of light pending how attached I am to the thought/belief, feeling, or pain. As the ship approaches the horizon, I see it dissolving into golden particles and eventually disappearing into the horizon. I’ve found it to be even more powerful to see the thought in word-form as it dissolves into golden particles and then disappears into the horizon. I like to visualize the feeling in word-form doing the same. For me, the dissolving of the energy as it changes into golden particles is transmuting the burdensome energy and then as the particles disappear into the horizon it is transcending into the sacred whole which includes my sacred oneness or soul’s harmony (symbolized by the horizon).  

Please do experiment with this practice and change or refine the imagery and visualization as needed so it totally resonates with you. As you may have noticed, I said “as of now” when describing my mental and heart spaces to include the ship and harbor imagery because I know the imagery may change as I listen to my inner knowing. I’ve learned to allow the visualization to have its own freedom pending my soul’s needs. 

In fact, as I’ve been updating these posts, my visualization has changed recently. I now visualize that I am plucking or pulling out the mental burden from my mind and the emotional burden from my heart. I place the burdens in a pile by my feet. I then “undress” the physical burdens by visualizing that I’m taking off a heavy cloak which falls on the same pile as the mental and emotional burdens. I ignite the pile of burdens with a sacred flame and burn it into golden ash, and then a strong wind blows it away into the void. The newly transmuted and transcended energy reintegrates into my sacred oneness or soul’s harmony, and the collective sacred whole.  Again, no matter the imagery, the goal of the practice is to provide a sense of being cleansed and empowered by clearing, transmuting, and transcending the energy of the soul. 

If you still feel overly attached to the thought or belief, then you may need to explore it further for deeper processing. Please refer to my post, “The Art of Empowering Your Mind” (15 March 2016), for an effective tool to challenge the validity of disempowering and limiting core thoughts/beliefs and to identify more empowering thoughts/beliefs. After implementing this soul healing practice you can try Practice 4 again with the addition of the new empowering thought which you can say as an intention to close the visualization.

PRACTICE 5:  This practice involves replaying the events that triggered the anger reaction from a different perspective. This change in perspective is grounded in peace, love, clarity, and empowerment and also involves visualization.

First visualize you are encased in a soul boundary as described in Practice 1 so you feel safe and empowered. Next visualize you are being flooded and filled with love, golden/white light, peace, and clarity within the soul boundary. It is most effective when using this soul healing practice to genuinely FEEL this energy of love, peace, and clarity vibrating within you, as well as a sense of safety and empowerment. If you are having trouble generating this elevated experience, then try doing the breathing techniques as described earlier (four-count breath and intentional breathing), or any another form of deep breathing, meditation, visualization, grounding, and/or prayer.

Continue the visualization by replaying the anger event from this elevated perspective and experience. You may notice several modifications or changes to the original event that will be unique to you. Such modifications may include, but not limited to: still setting appropriate boundaries without projecting harsh, harmful energy, offering the other party or circumstance compassion such as an intention or prayer for their safety and peace, or just letting go of the situation with an intention of clarity and peace for all involved. I believe energy doesn’t know linear time so when you energetically replay an event with empowered, elevated energy, it will likely have a positive effect upon your current state of being, and possibly the other party or circumstances involved in the event. This practice is better explained below in the “My Experience with the Soul Healing Practice” section.

PRACTICE 6: If the anger energy is still quite persistent and you are having difficulty with the first five practices, then another effective way to move the energy is what I refer to as the “primal scream”. Of course, I am not the first to speak on this practice, but through my own experience I found it to be incredibly useful in moving and releasing stubborn, resistant anger.

The practice is simple. Find a safe space where you won’t alarm others of mistakenly thinking you are in distress or need help. I like to do this practice while driving, but would recommend trying it in a stationary space first so you are familiar with how you respond to it. In a stationary space, I’ve used a pillow or blanket to muffle the sound, especially if others are in another room.

From the depths of your soul summon a scream. The key to this practice is to release the scream without any filter from your mind telling you how silly or weird it may sound or even feel, but to allow a pure raw emotional purge. You may need to summon the scream a couple of times. You should experience an emotional, mental, and physical feeling of relief and cleansing. I suggest sitting in this new energetic feeling, breathing deeply to calm your nervous system and to return to a rest state. Once you feel more centered and balanced, try any of the above practices again.

SOUL HEALING PRACTICE CLOSING

I like to close each soul healing practice with another visualization, especially if the practice doesn’t include an energetic shield/boundary. If the practice does include a protective sphere of light, then adjust this closing visualization to complement the practice. The closing visualization may also be a stand alone practice. The intent is to further cleanse any residual blocks or burdens, calm the soul, restore optimal functioning, and realign the soul as above, so below.  

Visualize a disk of purifying, white light that is above you and is large enough to fit both your body and energetic field. The purpose of the disk is to scan your body and energetic field while it simultaneously moves any residual mental, emotional, physical, and energetic blocks or burdens. The energy will be moved out and drained like an energetic faucet as it disappears into the void. The intention of the energy as it disappears is to be transmuted and transcended into the sacred whole which includes your soul’s oneness or harmony. 

As you continue the visualization, imagine the purifying disk of light descending down towards you and begins to scan your upper energetic field and extends outward to capture your entire energetic field as it moves down your body, starting with your head, down your shoulders, down each arm, and out each hand. Visualize any blocks or burdens draining out of your hands (like a faucet). You can imagine the energy as darker energy flowing out. Once you feel it is complete or see the energy begin to trickle stop the flow from your hands. Bring your attention back to your shoulders and continue the scan down your chest, your abdomen to the pelvic area, down each leg, and out each foot. Again visualize any blocks or burdens draining out from your feet, once you feel it is complete or see the energy begin to trickle then stop the flow. Now take a moment to visualize your entire body and energetic field are now cleansed and cleaned.  

Next say to yourself, CALM, and visualize and feel every cell of your body and particle of your energetic field is calming like a pristine, quiet mountain lake with no movement. Just calm and quiet. Take a few deep belly breaths to savor this feeling of calmness. Next, say to yourself, HEAL, followed by optimal health and functioning, and golden light are restored, visualize every cell of your body and particle of your energetic field is now filled with sparkling golden light as you are glowing and vibrating with this golden energy. Visualize the golden energy extends outward to form a sphere of light that now surrounds you. The sphere of light may change colors, any color of your choosing. Again, take a few deep belly breaths to savor this energy of renewal, strength, and empowerment. 

Lastly, visualize a column of golden threads above you descending down through you and exiting out your feet, continuing down into the earth to be deeply anchored into the earth’s core so you feel secured, stable, and grounded (you can add imagery of golden roots or similar extending from your feet to be anchored into the earth’s core). Next see a violet light doing the same, and finally a pure white light doing the same. The intent of the columns are to align you above and below, so you feel both grounded and elevated. You may close the visualization by saying to yourself three intentions, for example I say: I am powerful, I am magical, I am healing, and as I say each intention I visualize myself growing taller, stronger, and feeling more empowered.

As a last note and most likely suggested in the description of the soul healing practice, do experiment with, change, refine the practice as needed so it truly resonates with your soul, becomes your personal practice, and evolves and changes with you. By making the practice your own, you are listening to your inner guidance, are connecting with your sacred divine self, and aligning with your unique wisdom and soul’s vibration. 

MY EXPERIENCE WITH THE SOUL HEALING PRACTICE 

EXPERIENCE 1

The morning began with a little irritation because my daughter was running late for school after asking the night before to get to school early to finish homework. We left the house in a haste, knowing we would only arrive to her school 10 minutes early as opposed to 25 minutes.

As we were driving to school, still in our neighborhood, a car was tailgating me. I remained persistent in maintaining the neighborhood speed limit. The tailgating car turned on a parallel alley driving at a high speed in close proximity to homes in an attempt to get ahead of me, but failed because they had to stop for me at a stop sign. I asked my daughter to get their license plate number so I could report them for reckless driving. I gave the driver a foul, angry look at which I noticed they were teenagers. I thought, figures…teenagers. 

As we entered the school drop-off carline, a security person directing traffic was trying to keep the carline moving and motioned me to continue driving towards the main entrance. I was approaching a side door that was closer to my daughter’s classroom so I decided to disobey their direction and pulled over so she may enter the nearest door. The security person was clearly frustrated with me and we exchanged mutually irritated looks.

After those three events which began to derail my day, I immediately felt terrible and heavy as I was being flooded with pulsating anger. I noticed I wanted to harshly judge myself for being angry and for my reactions following the anger. However, I interrupted the judgment with compassion and reminded myself the presence of anger was only a signal of an imbalance and that something needs to change.

I decided to try several of the practices during my morning run, but began with the four-count and intentional breathing exercises to set the foundation of clearing and grounding my chaotic energy. For me another way to get out of my head and for processing spiraling thoughts and feelings is while running, specifically running outdoors. It is also instantly grounding for me and helps to clear my mind enough so I can view my experience with more objectivity and altitude. I asked myself, why did those events make me so angry? I explored the question with gentle curiosity and not with harsh interrogation. 

I realized in all instances, I felt “pushed around”. I further explored and asked myself: where else in my life do I feel pushed around? Upon this question, I realized I felt this way in numerous areas of my life both from the past and in the present. I continued the practice by asking myself, what does it mean to be pushed around, and I immediately identified a self-defeating core belief, I don’t matter. Once the core belief was identified I did feel an immediate sense of relief and understanding for my behavior. I also felt a sense of cleansing as I illuminated a shadow aspect within me which elevated my soul’s vibration. I’ve done this practice enough that I can often get to the core belief rather quickly, but please do use the techniques provided in Practice 3 if the core belief isn’t as apparent.  

I decided to continue with Practice 5 and replayed all the events from this elevated perspective while still running (a moving meditation for me). I visualized letting go of control of my daughter running late knowing she was already feeling the negative consequences, and I hoped with an intention that she would have enough time to complete her homework. I visualized that while still maintaining my speed in order to obey the speed limit that I didn’t exchange a foul, angry look with the other driver, but felt more empowered. I set an intention the driver would learn a lesson about reckless driving in the future, but without harm to themselves or others. I also considered still reporting them for reckless driving. I visualized when we entered the school’s carline that I still “disobeyed” the security person because I wanted to get my daughter to the nearest door. Rather than becoming defensive for my actions, I committed to my decision from a more balanced perspective. I knew I was disobeying their direction (without harm to another), but respected their efforts for keeping the carline moving efficiently. I offered a smile and a genuine “thank you” with an apologetic wave knowing I was still in the wrong.

Upon completion of this visualization and meditation, I felt the anger dissipate from my body and soul, and I felt energetically lifted. I trusted this new elevated energy traveled to all who were affected by my previous harsh and angry reactions and were energetically lifted in some way as well. I also apologized to my daughter for dropping her off with such dense, anger energy, and shared my soul healing journey with her.

EXPERIENCE 2 

This next example is more recent of someone who hurt me emotionally. This person is someone I’m very close to and hold dear, and who I count on for support. They blatantly disregarded my emotional needs when I voiced my truth (the reason I was feeling hurt). They immediately retreated into self-preservation mode by becoming very defensive, where I felt like I was the problem. I was literally in shock by their unsupportive and selfish behavior, but later realized it triggered similar feelings from my upbringing at which I buried  deeply in my young soul. I was too young to process the hurt and emotional abandonment at the time.

My response to what felt like an attack was extreme anger. A fiery ball of fury that was smoldering and blazing wanting to explode, but I didn’t allow it to hastily erupt into an outburst. I allowed the energy to be with me for a few days because I needed to make space for it before I was ready to move it. I suppose it was a kind of homage and honor to the anger I must have felt when I was young. However, after a few days the anger was beginning to be a bit destructive. I wasn’t feeling good physically and I was creating a clear divide between myself and the person who hurt me. I knew it was time to transform and transcend the energy. 

Before I began the visualization, I did the four-count breath and intentional breathing techniques to further calm my nervous system, but also to open the door for healing and for a willingness to move the energy.  As I began the visualization, I asked for extra help from my sacred divine self and my spirit team to aid in transforming the anger into empowerment. I visualized my sacred flame igniting in my power center (solar plexus area) where it began to consume some of the anger into its flames. I directed the sacred flame upward to energize and purify all my upper energy centers (chakras) and beyond to the sacred sun, and downward to energize and purify my lower energy centers and beyond to the earth’s molten core. I felt aligned both above and below. I then saw my sacred flame growing and expanding to form a sphere of fire around me, as the anger was being transformed and transcended. 

I then activated my sacred divine masculine who I visualized emerging from the flames as a warrior god with golden Spartan armor where he stood tall, confident, strong, and all powerful. I also imagined a fiery and powerful dragon standing behind him. I then saw myself merging into my sacred divine masculine so that we became one. I felt empowered and confident and said the following intention as I looked down at the person who hurt me (due to visualizing myself as very tall): you will not manipulate me, you will not guilt me, you will not control me, you will not hurt me, or you will be burned, I am fully protected and empowered. Again, the “burn” is not to add more anger, hurt, and confusion, but to give a clear message I am protected. I imagined the flames creating a strong boundary between us where I felt empowered and safe, but they were also purifying the energy.

I took the practice a little further and incorporated energetic cord cutting (mental and emotional attachments). I like to call upon Archangel Michael to help me cut cords that are holding both myself and the other person or situation back from our highest potential. With his help, I cut the cord of anger and resentment between myself and the person who hurt me with one strong, swift strike of the sword. Once the cord was severed I said the following intention: you are free and I am free, and I waved goodbye to them while blowing them a kiss as they did the same for me. The loving gesture of your choosing as you release each other is a form of forgiveness for yourself and the other. It also acknowledges the roles each played in the experience of growth and expansion, and helps to keep the cords from re-attaching as the cord was released with love and compassion. Visit my post, “Cutting the Cords to Suffering” (19 July 2016), for a more detailed description of this soul healing practice. 

I noticed the energy immediately shifted. The heaviness, hurt, and anger dissipated, and the energy now filling me was clearer, fluid, and empowered. I had an epiphany that I can still receive the love the person is able to give, but I can now protect myself from the love they are not able to fully give. I also had a clear knowing I may need to reinforce this new energetic shift in the days to come, but it felt damn good in the moment. Just a day later they initiated a conversation. They apologized for their behavior, and we came to an understanding. They also affirmed how much they do love me and desire for me to be happy.

In addition to this breakthrough, I had another insight triggered from this experience that illuminated a deeper belief I’ve been carrying for the past 20 years. I’ve felt that the universe in general has not fully met my emotional needs since the death of my husband. I felt emotionally abandoned to heal and manage all the emotional and mental pain and hurt by myself all these years, to include to help my daughter with her evolving grief as she grew older.

But I knew because of my internal work that this belief was distorted, it’s just the way it felt so I made it true for awhile. When I challenged the belief I found it to be NOT 100% true.  A clear example of how a type of underlying energy of suffering was kept under the radar for a long time even with all my soul healing, until it was time for it to be triggered, and I was ready to fully heal the wound. Visit my post, “The Art of Empowering Your Mind” (15 March 2016), to learn how to challenge the validity of distorted thinking such as self-defeating, limiting, and disempowering thoughts and beliefs.  

As a side note, I’ve incorporated a version of most of these soul healing practices into my daily meditation to include the breathing techniques (four-count breath and intentional breathing), Practices 1, 3, 4 (energetic soul boundary, identifying mental/emotional burdens, and clearing, transmuting, transcending energy), and other visualizations/intentions as I align my energy centers. I find including these practices in my daily meditation helps to start my day with more balance, harmony, confidence, and empowerment. I notice that I am able to manage and negotiate my day better even when difficult experiences arise. 

POEM

Below is one of my poems that describes Practice 6, the primal scream.

PRIMAL SCREAM

You make your presence known,
once again.
A heavy mass of dense, churning fiery energy,
slowly, methodically rising ablaze
from the internal depths.

Why? Why again!

The initial impulse is to push down
with locked arms, full force,
brute strength.

Your entry brings fear.
The fear of confusion and distraction,
searching, scavenging, ravishing
through the thick brush of the mind.

An impulse to hastily clear the thicket
with a machete composed of razor-sharp words,
swinging wildly, blindly, intensely.

Clear it!

The frenzy blocked, skillfully
by a pervasive energetic shield, a pause in the fight,
so clarity can beam through the chaos of the mind,
through the turbulent emotional waters
like a teleportation from another dimension.
It finds a way, with bold determination
through the mental and emotional black hole.

The clarity comes in peace,
brings suspension of time, of space,
and within the depths of the soul
a soft, faint whisper of mystic knowing
flutters forward,
landing softly upon the petals of the heart.

It is heard.

It knowingly suggests to allow the fireball
of fury, of rage to elevate.
See it for what it is —
underneath the burning, fierce flame
glows a timidness full of fear.
This flame of anger cries for help, to be seen,
the only way it knows how,
with a raging tantrum.

The whisper nudges to greet the blaze
with more than reluctance, synthetic hospitality,
but with curiosity, openness, compassion,
understanding.

It says to resist the urge to succumb
to the raw, untamed anger
with grinding teeth, clenched fists
or to be paralyzed
by the electric charge of terror,
pulsing through the highway of nerves.

Release the building tension, explosive emotion,
with a primal scream tucked deep in the soul’s core,
containing ancient wisdom, transcendental power.
Expanding the soul’s tectonic plates,
triggering an earthquake of release
rumbling through the physical body,
collapsing old limiting cognitive structures,
built in fear.

Allow the grains of release
to fall effortlessly through the sieve of perception.
Hold it steady,
with tenderness, with unconditional love.

No shame,
summon the primal scream,
release, rest, and be. 

— Stacy L. Pintor ©

Thank you for visiting my blog, I truly hope some or all of the soul healing practices do help you along your sacred journey and provide you some relief and ease.     

Visit my website if you want to learn more about me and to check out my poetry, especially if you liked the poem above which is included in my poetry book, Alchemy of the Soul. 

https://www.baresoulworks.com

Thanks again for visiting and for your support. Stacy 💚

PLEASE BE ADVISED

The soul healing practices provided in this blog are meant as a tool to aid in healing, for improving mental and emotional health, and for inspiring self-transformation. The practices are not meant to be a form of psychotherapy or social work practice requiring a contractual, professional relationship. If you need consistent therapeutic care and/or crisis intervention due to being at risk of harming yourself or others, then seek professional and/or emergency services immediately.

The purpose of this blog is to share with you how I integrate my personal experience, spiritual growth and expansion, and past professional mental health experience in the form of soul healing practices. By sharing my experience, it is my hope it will provide a practical example of how to interrupt and lessen the cyclical energy of suffering and to elevate your soul.   

These practices work best when you are ready to heal and expand. It is okay if you are not quite ready. Please be gentle and patient with yourself, seek outside help both professionally and personally as needed. You will heal and expand when you are ready. Sending you so much love, warmth, and compassion. Stacy 💚

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Revised and updated in 2025 by Stacy L. Pintor ©.

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